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I am lifting the fork

Here is the place where father often brings me too. Before ordering each time, father wants to ask elder sister and me: "What would you like to have? " I am lifting the fork, the height shouts: "Ice cream! " But colt of uncle Zhang before one's eyes, has not asked what I want to eat. Meticulously, it is oneself that I eat up That pieces of Western-style food, expressing one's gratitude they. Three people just went out of the gate of the Western Returned Scholars Association, uncle Zhang said to me colt immediately: "Small and foolish, you catch publically Go home the car. " I ask Pan Su: "Then how about you and uncle Zhang? " "Uncle Zhang wants to go back. " I take the bus. Windowpane see by they because the Mr. and Mrs.s at sidewalk, a the first one later to Leave in the north. The hair on the temple of uncle Zhang's colt is under the sunshine at noon, demonstrate the almost transparent color and luster. Sit in the car In,feel I unless the tired, shank the sour, the bloated in board in foot. The person who still did on foot, did not feel tired? -- It seems, it is really an extremely dogged thing to uncle Zhang's colt with interest that fond of.

Another lovely place Publish

Another lovely place Publish in Chinese school composition at the school bulletin ' 12 years old) Treasure, appreciate the child's achievement (1) --From diary to publishing books High Qian according to information impressions of tour that China look for one's roots 40 day, manuscript to show page 300. I treasure her work crystallization, bind the manuscript into " book " Share for the friends, try to publish formally. It is hospitable that this has encouraged her writing greatly, further work hard to play an important role to her. At the end of 1992, we go abroad to ferment and come back home to visit one's relatives for the first time after 6. To high Qian, this is the tour of looking for one's roots for a long time of ardent hope. Still only 5 years old when she goes abroad, has come to U.S.A. during these 6 years, under our conscious repeated warning, she still keeps much understanding and memory of childhood to the homeland of China. Over the past 6 years, my cultivation in literature and art to her, has already made her become a girl with abundant emotion. Speak of coming back home, high Qian is always very excited, too impatient to wait. I utilize such eager mood of hers, negotiate the terms with her: Keep a diary on the way, write every day's activity down back to China this time, after getting back to U.S.A., the written form of putting it in order, print and bind into book form, stays and commemorates for ever. We have reached " The agreement " ,Go back behind the U.S.A., want, write piece as long as Third Five-Year Plan Period come out by final report of page ten. I require her to put the diary in order the written form, since in order to let her understand China, it is for the thinking and writing ability of tempering her too. She seems very excited, the writing is not a difficult matter to her. Edifying, relative, aspiration looking for one's roots and yearning to the motherland in memory in childhood for the literary works, interweave into her blazing passion - -So long as can go to China, she is very glad! I hang her appetite very high. At that time, the notebook computer was still very rare, I have bought one for her without the least hesitation, let her take the writing on the road.

We follow you

We follow you Move towards tomorrow of reform and opening-up He sings very well, 22 young girls wear the long skirt of red, yellow, blue three colors, dance accompanying by 2/4 of the rhythm struck lightly. They are clustering round the baritone, and the baritone has been staring in the left front of 45 degrees all the time, hands hold the microphone, express his deep friendship again and again. The song has been suspended, has lived in dance, quiet down again at the scene, the woman host of the variety column of TV station of the city wears and attacks black clothing to go on the stage, she blink eyes, ferment good mood, begin to tell in a low voice: "When celebrating joyously here, this happy time, friends, you ever expected, in this beautiful world, there are a lot of unfortunate people. " The woman host goes down the stage, lead a little girl's hands, the woman host says: "Friends, on June 11, the society of channel 22 of ours exposed thoroughly the column and once made the special program of column. Wu TingTing, a girl as pretty as a flower, is her - -Make a video recording, a close-up that give, friends, Wu TingTing, is her, suffers from leukemia, only blood cancer. " The woman host has described the tribulation that the illness, miserable condition, human body of the little girl stand carefully, and family's economic situation one is short of money. All in that place have sounded all around to sob. "Friends, after the program broadcasts, channel 22 has received countless telephones, written letters, there is a large amount of remittance, they thank for channel 22, thank for channel 22 closely linked with the masses of audiences, related by flesh and blood, in fact, we should express gratitude to you, you kindhearted people! " (prolonged applause) The host's tear begins to glimmer in front of lens, but does not fall down, she has one such ability: When tears this glimmer, when should let tear trickle, she know what's what. She squat lower part of the body, gather around, live Wu graceful. She pass until Wu graceful microphone, Wu TingTing says: Thank grandparents, uncle auntie, elder siblings. Little girl's detailed sound of detailed languages, come to a woman, the woman host says: "Friends, this is graceful mother, a common laborer 37 years old. " The look of this mother is quite wooden, she is supported by the woman host, a pair of appearances involved, lost one's mind, the woman host is saying tearfully: "Elder sister, please speak a few words. " Mother has taken over microphones, the ones that brim with tears are not only languages. The woman host says: "Talk about your innermost thoughts and feelings, your true feeling at this moment. " Mother just shakes the head silently, the tears fall down, say, only have extremely difficult look left. Her corner of the mouth constantly sobs, teeth are gripping the figer tip of the little finger closely. The woman host says: "Please say one sentence, even if one sentence. " The unexpected thing took place at this time, mother sobed uncontrollably suddenly during the process of shaking the head, but has only cried, she covers with both hands. The TV lens is caught to this picture, has given her agony to the huge numbers of families. Woman host place amaze by haphazardly finally, she turns over the face, takes over microphones, the hot tears have trickled finally, hang on her cheek, sparkles on the fax, she said incomparably affectionately: "This mother's society that must be expressing gratitude to us in the heart, thank our big family. It is this big family of ours that sends warmly to their mother and daughter, send the love. Friends, mother and daughter are unfortunate, however, in our society, they are lucky, and happy! Their misfortune has verified a word like this, when one place is hit by a disaster, help streams in from all over the country, this is a devotion of a kind of love that blood is thicker than water. " The woman host's voice has improved by eight degrees, announce loudly: "Friend, friend, to permit condition group hear little unfortunate experience of girl we, today, Chairman Ms. Luo Qi who permits the condition group donates 10,000 yuan to Wu TingTing's mother and daughter on behalf of the whole company. Let us express hearty thanks to such a magnanimous act undertaken for the public good! " The party has reached a climax, Ms. Luo Qi is coming up leisurely in face of the lens of the camera, to withdraw one enormous getting red envelope on hand she, envelope arrange party striking Aeabic numeral 10 ï¿¡¤, 000,Ms. Luo Qi very gives enormous red envelope to Wu TingTing's mother seriously, and shake hands with her mother. The whole audience have burst into the warm applause for a long time. The whole audience have been moved, the passion is played up like a raging fire. The artist is whispering with people to broadcast in famous TV, the bystander gives him a push lightly, hint the lens is facing toward him, the artist smiles immediately to broadcast in famous TV, do the form of applauding, participate in " the people " Happy to. <> chapter six (2) The woman host has passed the microphone again to in front of the little girl, say: "Graceful, tell the elder sister, what song do you want to listen to? " Little girl blink eyes, think for quite a while, remember, say: "I want to listen to " the motherland, my kindly mother " - -It is the male voice. " Speaking here, the light in the field has been already getting dull, accompaniment sounds, it is in front of the microphone and Geng DongLiang has already stood, the move light is made on his body. The stage changes a person immediately on the station if dedicated on in east, self-confident, calm, is full of animated courage, can push down the mesa. Who does not love one's own mother Use that bolling hot compatriot's soul Who does not love one's own mother Use that bolling hot compatriot's soul Dear motherland Kindly mother Store fully in the blue sky sea Store all over deep love Our deep love to you General manager Li JianGuo sits behind Ms. Luo Qi, he holds arms, listens attentively to every initial consonant and every simple or compound vowel of a Chinese syllable very carefully. If really is good, Geng Dong enunciates and belongs to sound fullness and science only, the breath is good, lax, strong, well penetrate. The high pitch part is steady too, the part that should be explained all clearly explain, the tone quality is unified, it can combed too that open and easy, if really is good. This song is that President Li is selected in person, not too difficult, also not too easy. JianGuo Li disclose Luo Qi Ms. with arm, exert pouting one's lips as a signal to stage, say in a low voice: "What do you think? " Luo Qi says: "Right, the guy is very handsome. " Li JianGuo says: "That is, the guy is really very handsome. " It was on in the east that early in the morning dedicated the next day and is breathed out by Li JianGuo to the office. Stay up continuously, make face of DongLiang Geng hang up tired out color, like finish 15 the moon, the deficit has appeared. The mood of President Li is good. He is reading a octavo newspaper with enthusiasm when Geng DongLiang enters the door, dedicated to go to him bright in the east, Li JianGuo said: "A new star is rising slowly. " This words seem that go off the subject a bit. JianGuo Li reach, in front of Dong Geng on, say newspaper stand: "You have had the newspaper. " Dedicated the east bright quiet take over, he really " at " The newspaper, is singing in three literature and art layouts of edition heartily. There are block letter comments of conduct nearby: "The singing of the singer of new generation Geng DongLiang has caused the audience's great enthusiasm. " Dedicated to look at oneself bright in the east, look at this section of characters, excited and ashamed, one night, when he becomes " The singer of new generation " ? When the audience says to him " Great enthusiasm " ? Create something out of nothing really, have, for have have, make people ashamed, but let people inspire really. Did he sing a song? Dedicated east on red face, a bit terrified, say: "How could say so, have let the classmates see how to have the face? " Li JianGuo says calmly: "You do not think oneself is the singer, but people have already admitted. " Li JianGuo draws back the drawer, takes out a bundle of cash, throw it on the tabletop, Li JianGuo presses a form lived on the tabletop with the finger, pass over: "10,000, it is yours, sign a word. " Geng DongLiang did not answer to too come supernaturally, reply and say extremely instinctively: "What? " Li JianGuo says: "Your start fee, 10,000. You sign a word. "

everything takes place in remote past

Give Handmade Bracelets Beaded Bracelets Heart Necklace Beaded Necklaces up oneself, it is the time consuming course that meets for a long time, progressively, we need to go through various agony. In order to reduce the agony, we need to study a kind of extremely important psychological skill which keep the equilibrium, I call that " The all-embracing " . This is the tool promoting intelligence to be ripe and indispensable. All-embracing, mean affirming oneself, in order to remain stable, as well as give up oneself, in order to vacate the space, accept new idea and idea, realize the self- equilibrium. As to this, theologian in " write to the dance spirit " one, do apt description in Kean in Sam:

I must surmount everything existing, surmount the idea of regarding oneself as the centre. Dispel the stereotype produced by personal experience, will get ripe understanding. This course includes two steps: Dispel the past when is familiar with, pursue fresh future. In the face of strange person, thing, thing, I need to let the experience, present demand and future expectation in the past attended together, " hold a consultation " together ,Evaluate my demand and realistic state, make the appropriate judgement and determine. In order to experience the uniqueness of the fresh things, I must be with the attitude of forgiving all, persuade stereotype and idea that have to make way for temporarily, let the strange, novel things enter sense organ world. In this course, I must try my best, demonstrate ripe self-, honest posture, enormous courage as much as possible, if not, every second every in life, it will be that one of experience will be repeated again in the past. For experience all people, thing, unique and fresh place of thing, I must let they soul to enter me, and stop and take root. I must totally release oneself, even does not hesitate to totally break the self- the past.

The prerequisite of the all-embracing, it is many to lie in what you got forever than the ones that gave up. Contain by oneself, it is the course of a kind of self-perfection, among them must go through the agony given up, its violent intensity, even like in the face of the death. However, like essence of the death, the old things disappear, the new things will be born. The agony of the death is the agony of emerging, and the agony that the agony emerging is the death too. Grow and die, it is the two sides of a coin to can be compared to. Will set up newer idea and theory, some old ideas and theories must die. Poet Eliot (1888- 1965, British poet, dramatist and literature reviewer) The end in the poem " the wise's tour ", describe three the wise belong to in accordance with Christianity, agony that gave up to believe in in the past like this:

I remember, everything takes place in remote past

I must go through another time, find it one's obigation to walk forward and not to turn back

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Or in order to grow? Or in order to die? No, have not died, it is only raw

I have seen that grow and die: We needn't suspect, we have abundant evidences

They are far different, frightful

Like the death, the new birth brings agony to us too

We get back to one's own place, get back to the territory of soul

Follow day one in the past, let us not be easy with the happiness any more

The people of foreign countries hold their god tight, pray for immortality

And I am glad to die once again - --Find it one's obigation to walk forward and not to turn back

Only the two sides of a coin to since grow and die, perhaps we can think of Soth's square culture about the idea of the samsara in life, for example, after people die, really have next life? The death of human body, will lead us to enter new samsara? This is unsolved riddles all the time to us, but the essence of life is really the course that life and death is accompanied. More than 2,000 years ago, the ancient philosopher of Rome added and said while filling in: "Learn to survive constantly in life, is studying the death constantly too in life. " In his view, the more people must live for a long time, the more ones that go through are grown and died, meanwhile, just can go through more happiness and heavy agony.

Then, may we totally avoid the agony of soul? In other words, can we minimize the agony of soul? The answer is certainly, deny too. Say it is certainly, refer to: Totally accept the agony, in a certain meaning, the agony no longer exists. We can make the ability that soul forgives strengthen via growing up and containing by oneself, close to the perfection. Those are in children eyes, considered as the huge difficult problem, at our hand, may be easily solved, do not become agony while being painful at this moment. The person what's more with ripe intelligence, mostly have love of going beyond the ordinary person. Love, can make them experience more happy, less agony.

From the viewpoint of another respect, the answer is denied too. The world needs capable person, the ripe one of intelligence is the best person, their heart has strong strength, can make various decisions. Make the decision at omniscient and omnipotent state, than under the state of having half knowledge far, go through more agony. For example saying, two generals lead 10,000 soldiers to go out to fight respectively, in a general's eye, 10,000 soldiers are just strategic tools, but in another general's view, the soldier is not merely the tool fighting, they are independent lives, it is a member of the family. Face it at the crucial moment of life and death, which general is apter to make decision? Perhaps the person that you think intelligence ripe, will never become that general ahead. But very obvious, the answer is the former, because of

He needn't stand the agony that the ripe one of intelligence go through. The similar situation described above, will take place on enterprise's main fact, doctor, teacher, parents too, everybody may meet the chance, makes the choice of influencing all one's life. But the apt person who make decision does not mean it is the best policymaker. The best policymaker, would like to bear the agony that its decision brings, but does not influence its ability to make decision at all. One remarkable great, look at it bear painful ability make, remarkable and great itself, can bring to somebody happily too - --This is a kind of paradox on the surface, actually this is not so. Pious Buddhist, often forget Sakyamuni goes through the agony of the disaster, the Christian neglects Jesus and helps the generation's happiness each time too. The agony that Jesus lays down one's life for a just cause on the cross, make the happiness of the alunite in the bodhi tree with Sakyamuni, there is not a lot of in essence different, it is likewise the two sides of a coin.

If the goal of life is to escape the agony, you can well come day, needn't look for the more high-level spirit and progress of the consciousness. Because and torment without the agony, can't realize the surmounting of soul. Moreover, even if reach very high mental realm, it is painful and strong but at that time, may far exceed your imagination, make you finally unable to bear. "Since it is so, why will everybody court it from the development of my spirit? " Perhaps you will ask. To be frank, put forward such a question, may be known little about happy essence by you, between lines in book this perhaps, you can find the answer; Perhaps how diligent is it, you are nobody of final answer.

About the balanced and essence given up, I will supplement one sentence: In order to give up, there must be a certain thing at first. Your impossible things not always given up. Want to give up the victory before this resembling is won, does not know where to begin at all. Likewise, establish oneself at first, can give up oneself. Numerous persons, fearing the feeling of the agony because of the desire to lack practice, cause soul to be unable to grow up. They believe that can realize a certain goal, but unwilling to stand agony for this. Some people are in order to reach higher realm of spirit, even does not hesitate to go to the desert to live in seclusion, or give up the suitable job, learn to do woodwork, they thought they passed the imitation coming to the surface, can take the shortcut, reach the extreme mental realm. They have not realized, for a long time, they remain during the course of growing up in inmature spirit, do only from the beginning, contain by oneself, it is the only shortcut, must go through indispensable adolescence, young period and middle age like them.

Contain by oneself, include four kinds of principles in life with positive significance, goals are all to solve the problem, but not avoid the agony. In sum, these four kinds of principles include: Postpone the sense of achievement, bear responsibility, respect the fact, keep the equilibrium. These four kinds of principles influence each other, even need to use all principles two or three kinds of among them sometimes, use their strength and motive force, these totally depend on the love that a person contains in the heart. Perhaps someone will ask: "Feedback, contemplates, Yoga's skill, psychoanalysis of the biological meaning, can be regarded as a part that is contained by oneself? " They only assist function, and does not have essential function. Whether real self-containment, or four kinds of above-mentioned principle of mine. So long as practise persevering, Mobile POS|Contactless POS|Fingerprint POS|Credit Card Terminal|Point of Sale anyone can make spirit, psychology and soul reach higher level.